I have been fearless lately. On stage and in auditions I have been absolutely fearless. Someone asked me about my relationship to bravery after I did a wild scene from Hand to God (see sock puppets below!).
I think my bravery is in direct proportion to one thing: forgiveness.
As I forgive everyone in my life, my pile of fear shrinks. On stage, as in life, I am now, maybe for the first time, entirely free to fully commit to every single thing, without obstacle.
How often am I forgiving people? Hourly. I forgive the sociopaths, the liars, the thieves, the soggy naysayers, the jerks in traffic, even the ex who pretended to have cancer and later stalked me. I forgive the bullies, the bad-mouthers, the manipulators, and especially the people who couldn’t see the truth.
I also forgive myself for mistakes I’ve made that still make me cringe. It may be the most gentle way we have to close our file on things that haunt us.
Every day for the last ten months I have had forgiveness at the ready and spread it everywhere I go. It’s a cousin to our friend, acceptance. But it’s bigger, deeper, and harder at first. It takes courage. It builds the courage pile so that it’s bigger than the fear pile.
It’s literally making me fearless.
Anybody want to try it with me and see what happens? How does fear affect your artistry?